the day she's silenced... the day i mourn

almost forgotten... only rmbred till mom got soo quite since im home... and den i came to...

today is the day i... nvm the details...

hey... hope your doin fine up dere... its your big brother... =) its kinda weird bloggin bout u... cos i usually talk to u in my prayers... im sure your watchin us... all of us... mom... dad... and your 3 other idiotic bros... =) its funny but wen i talk abt you... i feel better... i remember... the things i said dat day... apparently nobody forgets...especially mom... but i noe... u've forgiven me... im sure youre happy up in the heavens... n i bet youre well taken care of... big bro rmbrs u... so does mom...

im sure uve seen the tough luck ive been in for the past half year... hope ur not laughin up dere!!... heh... ouhwell... say a prayer for me my little sister...cos i really need it... though we've never met... we'll b together someday... and u can meet mom... =)

i love you... forgive me nite

the beginning of my silence... till the 24th hour

death ride home

i swear... i almost died today... yes im not kiddin... life just flashes past me like flickering essence of lightning...

earlier me oms and neek decided to slack at simpang... all thanks to fungfung after she cheated the feelings of the innocent by makin her way home like nobody's business after our plan for the day collapsed... idiot

we guys had quite a long talk about stuffs... like alot of stuffs... for example wad we do wen we're bored... and stuffs like dat... oms kills boredom by burning his hair... nonono... not the hair up dere... yup youre warm... warmmmmerrrr... bingo... dats ryte...DOWN DERE... DAT HAIR... ouhwell... sources of entertainment comes in weird forms... even black strands... but hey... i still love you... lol

den we started talking about creepy stuffs... as usual... omar often asked for a deathwish cos he cycles in threes all the time at pasir ris park... and encounters stuffs 100% of the time... brilliant... come on... pasir ris aint dat bad... i freakin live here ppl...

so made my way home and dats wen my death ride began... i took a cab as usual... and while i was in a cab... i felt this sudden shift of the vehicle... i was like... THE HELL WAS DAT??... den it happened again... and i started to get really worried... so i started concentrating on the cab uncle... den... the answer i was lookin for was just in front of me...

THE BLOODY CAB UNCLE WAS SLEEPY!!!!!!... o-m-freakin-g!!!... he kept dozing of every llike 5 sec and i swear i was gonna buang any time... the car kept shiftin in and out of the left lane like it was a test run for new wheels... my thoughts ran wild immediately... like for example if i did crash... i'll b the next ghost that haunts my neighborhood.... or like OMG... im not gonna get married!!!!... and lastly.. the thought i feared the most... OMG!!!... this will be the most UNGLAM DEATH EVER!!!... IN A CAB!!!... AND ITS FREAKIN COMFORT!!!!...

i knew there was a reason y i dun fancy blue cabs... firstly.. their freakin ex... secondly...almost every ride is a long ass route to home or anywhere else... and lastly after my near death experience... sleepiness... -_- somethin i could have never thought of as a reason for not takin blue cabs...

but i shudnt stereotype... cos not all cab uncles of comfort give u such experiences... just dat... i wont b takin blue cabs for at least a month... nite =)

"Nobody is perfect... if you're perfect... you're nobody... but apparently you're somebody..."

i cant believe i said this for an advice... and didnt noe it made sense 3 hours later... -_- ouh well

9 june... a year passed

i just feel like rantin... its just a one day thing... wont matter and wont mean anythin...

a year has passed... if things turned out right... today would be the happiest day of my life... thats how u meant to me... in this span of 365 days... i fell in love... deeper than i would have ever imagined... and the joy i've experienced had been ecstatic... ive never smiled so wide ever in my entire life... the long walks... the night we kissed in the rain... i still remember all that... it's special... will always be... SPECIAL...

karma slapped i guess... maybe my passed sins weren't forgiven... and they cost me... you... the love of my life... ive learned to atone for my wrongs... and made up for whats right... i guess every right has its wrongs... i failed to look through... but i'm managin it well somehow...

ive lived each day at the hopes of not lookin back... but even when i take the slightest peek over my shoulder... nightmares rushed... in ways i could have never imagined... its funny... heh... i just cant help but give off a smile... =)

the joy, the fear, the pain, the sorrow and the dreadful end... everyone has to experience it sooner or later... i experienced it later than everyone else... thankful though... cos ive got ppl that can show me how to deal... its hard to miss a link... its even harder if youve got nothin to hold on to... life's a little less of 19 candles for me... cos i died once... lol... we all did at some point aniwaes so what's new? lol...but boy when it hits you... it hits you hard... then again... im still alive... heh

it makes me wonder about how we often pursuit happiness... you know... through wealth... success and even love... this is not comin from me but... ive heard that we keep chasin what we think would make us happy... somehow... and freakin sadly ... lol... we'll never be completely happy with what we have... thats y we're always in pursuit... hmm... deep indeed... even when we were happy... sometimes we get careless...or worst case scenario... dead unlucky... and we lose that something or someone that kept us goin all these while... so what does life say to you next?... RUN AGAIN LA... =)

yea... i would have been the happiest man on earth today... but now im off to work... they say once bitten twice shy... lookin at it closely... i wasnt bitten... i was broken... =)

kae im done... like ive said earlier... its a one day thing... it wont matter i guess... though no matter how hard i wish it does...

i feel like smokin seesha.... so random

happy 9th of june to my fav couple... love u both... lol =)

decided to change my blogskin.... got sick and tired of the previous one... changed the song too btw...lol kinda liked it... hope u guys are okae wif it though... if not... lol... its my blog niwaes... heh

damn damn bored...

tests are nearin and i havent start a single muggin session... i cant get too laid back... i really need my B's... my gpa is improvin... cant afford to slack for anythin now... if not... im bound to pay the price... which i wont let myself suffer such fate la... i hope... please god... u the man... i want my b's... lol if u want somebody to humor... i suggest pickin on memekman... he'll b worth your while.. thank u god... ameen... =)