YOU

finally got to read it... and... im downright speechless

u see it comin... but u wish to shut them away... will my words ever reach you?... its not my choice to make.... its a hard pill to swallow for me... when u feel that your not ready for my words... will u ever be?... what came my way?.... has stepped me to the ground...

i m a shell of a man i used to be... ive shed my boyish grooms away through the flow of tears... to the point where i cant anymore... cos i really cant... the scar will always be there; ironically near my sense of sight though i cant see it until i look in the mirror... a mark of fallen grace...

spare me a life... and let that life breathe into me...

' in due time...u will realize that... the hardest thing and the right thing... are the same...' n i pray for that day when u will finally realize it...

i think ive got insomnia dammit... its frustrating and draining the livin outta me... im sooooo tired yet i cant sleep... reached home at 11am... been a long tyme since ive been out dat long... crazy day... and the rain certainly helped... it was freakin pourin and i had to strip down to avoid bein drenched... which is to no avail cos there wasnt much of a shelter from where we were...
had quite some time with the peeps from back den... and most of em are still the same... maybe wiser... less radical and for some... more slutty... which is... kinda freaky... lol...

its a record... 2 weeks... make dat 3 in case i lost count.... without proper sleep... my mind's been bombin a hell load of thoughts and the lack of sleep aint bein much of a fren either... WHY?!!!
its the freakin holidays for goodness sake!!...

the words from ms reena the other day still rings in my head... ' something tells me that u have already decided...'

have i?... if i had... THE HELL ISSIT?!!!... its killin me....