slide

projects have been drainin a whole lot of my energy... im becomin a freakin robot... but ouhwell...no way in hell am i gonna let it slide though

watched movie yest... damn funny show... kung fu mahjong 3... my jaw was achin from laughin...
cant wait for everythin to end... and let february come... birthday... bangkok... party party party... =)

so made my decision... not movin to germany... but we'll see la huh... im quite indecisive... meantime... im gonna try to move out and live on my own... its time i leave everythin for awhile... at least im not leavin the country ryte guys?....lol

alot of things to do... anp and stuffs... hais... at least got motivation cos von von gonna accompany me till 5am!... hope i dun doze off...

okae nites... prison break before i get back to work... buh bye

tertiary flinged

kinda blog dead recently... so yea... back

thursday was kind fo a long day... though we had no skool but yea...friggin CDS... come to skool for just dat... really man... furthermore... there was open house so yea... hehe... (OPURTUNIST) =) well von didnt come for cds cos she got LOA so the more of a reason i didnt wanna go cos feel bloody alone as everybody is involved in the open house... SOOO..... as usual... took attendence den helped out oms, fungfung, sheryl and fer at the Brand Hub.

kinda cool as the guys were like expressing the goodness of MARKETING and talkin about korea trip and all... the student visitors were kinda dead though... OUH BUT WHO CARES... if you dont want marketing den your problem la... lots of laaughs at the brand hub... hehe stayed dere and talked to many groups of students.... well honestly i didnt do the tokin but it was fer and the rest... me and nic were just watchin and slackin for the fun of it... den went home arnd 5.30 to rest before goin out again...

after changin den met nic ed and denneth at clarke quay... MOS was freakin packed but yea... thanx to von...and her cuz of course =) we got in through VIP... so yea... tertiary fling dis year was far better... music was dope of course and the drinks were as i expected... got my adrenanline up and ya... partied till like 3 plus and von looked like she tooked a shower!...LOL ... total non stop dancing...everybody was enjoyin themselves... my bros, ck, fer, von... everybody la...lol

yeap... definitely a great nite... had a hell offa ball....update more soon... nites ya

tension

mistakes... big or small we all get drowned by the wrongs we did... get eaten up... eventually spitted out... but some are dat unlucky... wherby they dun even get to have a second chance... cos the mistake they made... throws dem in fear... so forgiveness?... 2nd chances?... is just a far cry...

i just dont know anymore... u asked me to find him... yet you dun want to see him... u asked me to talk to him... and yet u dun even wanna hear wad the conversation is about... u asked me to bring him home... and unsurprisingly... u cant face him...

you... you asked me to take care of her while you were gone... wen exactly is everythin gonna be done?... the whole family tree has been buggin me even wen im at work... i cant freakin even think straight!... dont be so hard on yourself... if you love... love whole heartedly... but i noe dats impossible for you both to do dat to me... i can accept dat... but at least... for the rest of your sons...

i still remember as if its was yesterday... u said to me... "i promise myself... dat i will never love you with all my heart... cos i noe... u will disappoint me...and u already did... and u will leave this world one day... so... i wouldnt cry on your deathbed... cos it makes everything easier" at that time... i didnt understand... how could a mom say dat to his son?... but ryte now... yes... now... after 18 years of my life... i understand... everybody disapppoints... whether u like it or not... but... you forgot one thing...

i am me... i tainted your faces once... but though u wont love me as much... i love whole heartedly... cos... im just me... dats y... its hard for me... to let go.... to let someone from my family go down liddat... cos i dont weigh love with disappointment... i dont wiegh love with the pain i feel... im not lovin you less cos you left home... and niether because of wad u said to me...

im already at my weakest... physically and emotionally... with the mentality to discard all that ive percieved to live for... but ... i have the people around me... that are always dere to help me hold on... but sadly... there are also people dat want to destroy wads left of me...

where is my escape when i need it badly?...

so today went skool awhile... in the mood to see wad its like for 07... pretty much the same... but yea... alot of carts has been set up... jojo made cookies... damn nice... worth my $1... lol

in the meantime waited for nic to finish his project meetin... which oni took like 5 min... damn cool la bro... u the man... had lots of laughs wif the hilarious pics altogether... yea i entertain... dats wad i do... *winks* me and nic made dis stupid magic video clip... damn awesome la!!! ( actually its lame) but ya... we were bored...

after oms and fung went to repair lappy and aff and fer went to liduuuuuuuuuu....LOL (pun intended... sori i cant let it go) but yea... i headed down to joseph house and played winning eleven... not bad... im still quite hard to beat... =) i got skills okae!!!...lol had some vodka and a sip of gin and den went of for dinner wif ed along...

reach home... bathe... 45 min training wif bro... seriously im quite slow now... and i bled thanx to a sucker punch from him... hais... i need to keep up la dammit... he's too fast for me now... hope its not speed bein the critical factor... btw... i seriously need to cut my hair... damn itchy and its affecting my concentration... lol

okae... AFTER DAT... decided to do my ij... got the mood already... den bloody modem screwed me good... real good!!!! machines hate me MAN!!!!... wth... wad did i ever do to dem... ATMs, standard tix machine, modem, my laptop, vending machines... (even those in korea... -_- its international i tell u) so dis is a msg to you stupid cyber- computer- generated- by- electricity- wif the cheek to call urself mans' convenience- load- of- crap!!!......

please la... dun play me man
i seriously never do anythin lo
the vending machine in korea was the last straw
so please... gimme a break... i promise ill b good
ill stop cursing... my new year's resolution...
okae? =) ... hen hao

no mood to do ij now thanx to...err... lol... nvm

New year, NEw game??

its the dawn of a new year... lucky number seven?... we'll see... had a blast during the new years eve celebrations... apart from all the hectic runnin around in the morning till evening being the father figure of the family. Ppl just ask too many questions. all u can do is keep the lid on things. I just couldnt wait till the acting all stop. When evening came... i got to be me again. 18 and just hangin around wif the loves.

All headed to marina south for dinner. Im quite pathethic la huh. thanx. i just cant eat alot man even if its steamboat or buffet... lol i dont have a very big appetite as i used to anymore. so sad. dinner till 11 den decided to head to georges. but... lol bummer man. cab lines are jammed... every bloody cab was on call... when it struck 12... we all wished each other a happy new year...by the bloody roadside. Yes, not cool. But at least we get to see the fireworks. Damn cool. though all firework displays seem indifferent... but its the company that makes it all special. Nic refuses to hug us and wish us a happy new year becos he said he havnt reach georges yet.

Von and fer managed to flag a cab first den me nic ed walked all the way to the mrt station...BUT STILL NO CAB. -_- so fungfung called and asked us if we need her help. SAVIOR!
while waiting for her... we sang our hearts out by the roadside... lol damn funny.

reached georges around 1 plus and yea... finally nic wished everybody happy new year... -_- long overdue but yea.... hui fang dere mah... of cos la!... LOL so it was me,von,fer,affandi,fungfung, omar and edmund. The live band was awesome. But got this dude, bloody hell suddenly hugged me out of the blue and asked me to jumped along to the song of zombie by the cranberries. I was like... err... yea... happy new year to you... stop touching me... UR A DUDE! so yea... fer and von were laughing at my situation but hey... its the new year... and i think he's quite high so let him be la huh... lol

open bottle... black labelled till i dunno wad tyme... LOL standard la... me omar nic kiesha and les were all wasted... entertainment for fungfung and fer... so yea... 42 below was left untouched.. actually not really la... had at least 4 mouthfuls before georges... so yeap... still can... so we all spend the night at oms place. Had a great new years eve... lots of laughs, double the tears.

whats awaitin for me in the new year?... as 06 is gone... i have to enter 07 without a complete me and a complete family... im a shell of a man i am now... its not easy... but just by acting... it makes things easier to swollow. 3 more days left... time just aint on my side... still got skool work to be done...work.. i nid all the time left for me to think real straight... i want to turn 19... i really want to... if dats the case... at least... the hunger is dere... 07, ouh-seven..... ouh-savurn.


remember my promise...