Im ALIVE again ..

its far easier now den it was before. I can finally rest my thoughts and stop wondering. All the questions that needs to be answered were all laid on the table. And one by one, it made everythin so much clearer.

=) i can finally smile with my heart. Today has been one of the best days compared to any day of dis month. Seeing her smile and laugh. Its all worth it. Really. Its the little blessings in life i guess. Its just... she's more than just a blessing.

Went to watch happy feet together. Funny show. V cute. lol Been awhile since i laughed like dat. Before that we had alot of laughs in the school lab. Us, fer, sher, omar and fungwee. Hehe. talked abt alot of wierd stuffs. its not dat its wierd but its just.... LOL! ouh well, oni those who were there would understand. We also went through the memories of Korea too. =) omar can dance la!... he's just being humble as always.

yup dats all for tday. Ill b back of coz. Nite...

m O re t H an just a P erfect blessing... i love u

home alone

looks like i haven been bloggin for quite awhile... but ouh well im here now... =)

thursday went MOS wif the guys and gals and it was not bad i guess....the music was darn disappointing... and the most frustrating part is dat MY LOVE played only after i left!!!.... bloody dj needs just one tight slap...lol aniwaes bumped inot the owner of JOJOANGKONGTIAM... Mr Goei himself... so daring man u... got curfew still go club...

didnt expect to leave quite early dat day but i did... cos sheryl needs to go so i accompany her... its was like almost 1 am wen we left... but i did had fun wif dem... and please auntie fer and cindy.... stop poking my chest can...pain sia

niwaes after dropping sher off... my frens called and asked me if i wanted to join dem at Fisherman's... havnt seen them for awhile so i said y not... told the cab uncle to go pasir ris park instead of heading home...

Had a few drinks.... well okae la i wasnt drunk or anythin... Drank alot of Gin and a shot of Henessy... lol the pips are as funny as always... did alot of cathing up... they tried to throw me in the waters... the reason... cos my house is near... luckily i diverted the attention to Faz... bwahahah... serves you ryte woman... want to disturb me ryte?...

Next day...friday dat is... nothin much... i couldnt really sleep... thinkin of you... the gin and henessy still inside my stomach but... couldnt manage to get them out... ouh well... called omar asked him wad tyme he coming skool... den met him before consultation... after everythin done... initially me and hui peng wanted to watch happy feet... but would end quite late so just waited for omar to reach hm so i can crash at his place... while waiting went back to bathe and rest awhile... =) missing everythin abt you...

den after omar called... we left my place and i went straight to omar's place... picked up fungwee at her place den went straight to his... it was cool crashin...lol... fer and affandi joined us later on... watched bleach at his house den everybody was like... "WTH?!" wad u watchin dude?...lol idiots...

The room...was freakin cold!!!!... i immediately had sinus and was sniffelin all the way... fungwee was a goner cos she used every single piece of tissue the house had to offer... lol..

overall... yeap... not so cool being home alone... and now im freakin hungry...lol

a friend ask me that day....

???: What could be worst than losing the person that you love?

FiQ: (smiled).... nothing... the answer is nothing

Wherever You will Go

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need loveTo light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall.It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I wouldI'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down lowI'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out. The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you. Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall. It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

keys to my heart

KEYS TO MY HEART

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

errr...lol....ooookkae..... got dis from ong hui peng... i mean the link... lol

today was fine. seriosly the weather can really b unpredictable. Sun to rain sun to rain like four times today. i guess thats the beauty of nature. and also a person. went to cdc wif fer and hui peng and their btt is like.... next year! lol i guess they shud just slowly wait lo. weekends coming. lol guess ill b havin fun.

live and let live... =)

to dad....

I guess its just the November Rain. Honestly it hasnt been a great month and today justifies it... OUh well...hehe... i hope it gets better... Thank goodness i came home early today

To dad, i noe your trying to teach him. But honestly your ways are ridiculous. The pain doesnt hurt. But emotionally, u hurt me. But dun tok bout me... Cos the one you hurt more is hakeem. And the one you hurt the most is mom.

A Picture of uS

today was nice... get to meet up wif old frens and did alot of tokin... lol didnt noe they've got so much stuffs to discuss... met the pips at tampines den slack till arnd 6... den after fauzi left... went home to sleep awhile. Feelin quite drained. den went out again go jalan2 and den go home...lol

the day was quite fast... at home i spend my time... listening to new songs and also... drew a picture of us. LOL kinda surprising cos its been a long tyme since i really drew you noe. Suddenly realised dat i used to like drawing. I noe im good at it...lol Nah im just flatterin myself. =)

Casino Royale is opening soon. Cant wait... =)

To Understand... Finding you

You noe... love is amazing... its just somethin you look forward to but at the same time... many are afraid to jump into dem. The fear, the blame... are all but part and parcel dont you think. When your in love, alot of things come into part. The things u say, the things you do and how you express dat feeling. In time... when things dont go well... things just needs figuring out.

But the truth is... nobody can figure things out on thier own. The risk of gettin lost and frustrated is at its upmost high as you're living your life in an enigmatic tiring state. We consult family, frens and the people we love... helping us rationize wads really happening. I always wanted to noe what she's feeling and what she's really goin through. All i want is to understand. Allow me to find you again. We need each other. I noe its not easy for both of us but we need to sort things out together. Whatever it takes, just tell me. Let me in and let me understand. I noe there's so much for you to tell me... Just tell me. I wanna listen... im always here to listen. Let me find the real you... cos i want to...

love you... always have... always will

the 9th..

the 9th... lol

has always been the most happiest date of every month since i was born. Seems like im always smilin wen the 9th comes... its somethin i'll always look forward to... even wen things arent goin that well... i always feel that everything is gonna be fine wen the 9th comes... i noe its stupid but... its wad keeps me goin... my anni, my bdae... smiles n laughter... joy... no tears

lol... happy 9th everybodi... i asure u... everybody will have thier fun... and i will try to have mine... darn i forgot tmr i finish at 6!!! lol ... OUH WELL~~

Stand By Me will you?

Stand By Me

Nothing's impossible
Nothing's unreachable
When i am weary
You make me stronger
This love is beautiful
So unforgetable
I feel no winter coat
When were together
When were together


Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you i know i belong
When the story gets told
When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder
This love wont fade away
And through the hardest days
I'll never question us
You are the reason
My only reason

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you i know i belong
When the story gets told
I am blessed
To find what i need
In a world loosing hope
Your my only belive
You make things right
Everytime after time
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you i know i belong
When the story gets told

Stand by me
No more darlin i want you by my side
I want you hear with mee

=)

My Facade

Living lyfe in enigma is somethin alot of people fear. U dont know where your goin. Who you want to live for and your real purpose in lyfe. Alot of us live for our family and the people we hold dear. But when a person leaves and walks away just like dat, a part of you is taken away and the reason for you to go on is just somewhat of an option. To me, when that happens, the facade of a man crumbles... awakening their primal scream and cry for help.

But for a woman, the patience they have is... of something i bow down to. Their emotional strength and will to carry on is something dat one needs to admire. Its all to do with faith. You have faith towards the people around you and even to the person that walked, soon enough you'll b smiling again. The strength of a woman. Admiration to us men.

to mama and mummy, we all have each other...
We will go through this together.
The Promise of a son/grand son. =)

Accepttance....With Patience...Waitin

Todae... someone i hold dear is free... its somethin i have to live with... i love her and she asked me to let go... its wad she wants... and wad i feelis ryte... for now... ive never actually lost her... she will still be dere for me wen i need her...just... she wont b dere all the time... we are still close... but not a couple. Like my frens told me. Status aint everythin

If u really love her... u dont need to be together through status... she's still here... but not always.
Still love her... always missing her... i will always pray dat... if she really loves me... she will realise it... no status required... and she'll come back.

For now she needs freedom to do all the things she feels she needs to do... living lyfe while being free... which i understand and will always respect... i will always b dere for her... when she comes back... it will b in open arms... no matter wad... but all i want to noe for now is... if she still loves me?... since we didnt break on sour terms. Cos... i... love her

To Omar.Joseph.Fungwee.Winniefer and even Afandi... thanx for being dere for me... not forgettin Sheryl Yeo... =)

U guys are really dere for me... makin my load lesser and helping cope through dis challenge... dats ryte... its only a challenge... not the end of anythin... Jean will still b dere for me... but she just needs alot of space and time... till she comes back... i still have Her, Omar, Fungwee, Winniefer, Sheryl and Joseph.

I pray to God Almighty... dat if HE wans to challenge me... help me cope with it... assist me... through frens, family and even her... But if HE noes very well that i cant... Just take away my life and let me be closer to HIM. Cos i dun want to burden anybody in this world. Not my family, my frens and especially not her. I noe its just a test. To see if i really say wad i really mean to her. And if i was ever sincere.

To winniefer and affandi, you are just like the mirror of my relationship. I see alot of myself in Affandi. Sometimes we guys just want to b dere for them even wen its hard for us in certain situations. And we rarely spoke abt it. We just want to show how sincere and how pure our love is for our partner. I see my old self in Affandi really. We dont think much. We just b dere for them cos we love them alot. But we still need to understand dat our partners need the space to breathe. Letting them spend tyme wif thier frens wont hurt one bit cos they are sincere enuff to b wif u in the first place. Affandi, u are the luckiest guy on earth to be given such oppurtunity and chances by your partner. For me, its just one mistake and she left without even telling me about my mistake very early and got tired. She's right to leave me. m just not too lucky i guess...lol... give each other space and time cos we all have problems and things to settle individually. Cherish this relationship while its dere. Even for me, i still do... Cos She is the most amazing person ive ever met and be with... and for the girls, lol... dey just want to b dere for you...Yes irritating till you want to strangle yourself tymes 10 but... its sincerity and love at the end of the day. If u want space, talk to him abt it early... so he will understand... if he doesnt... GIV HIM MY PHONE NUMBER.... bloody hell.... lol

i love you, i love you all along.
i miss you... been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll b with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if i dun see you anymore...


At least she's still here for me... im thankful... and to my frens.... =) i love you all...

finally...

yea yea...haha i have a blog

took me quite awhile to get started though. must be under the influence hehe

ouh well...first of all shut up haiz now i am as kental as u...niwaes i mstill figurin out how to work dis thing so haha dun worri...ill get better...=)

overall school has been fine.seeing the old faces again and people bringin SEXYBACK (pun intended) hehe

ill update soon...